Here is a trap. I feel convicted that I want to live for others and share my faith and so I determine that I need to read my Bible more, to be more disciplined and organized, etc. And so in the process I become self-absorbed and set on achieving my plan for my own betterment.
What I need is the Gospel.
What I need is God's Word.
What I need is to be filled up with sweet water so that
whatever spills over is not bitter but sweet.
I cannot fill myself up like that.
I can put myself in a position to be filled by reading God's Word, praying for the Holy Spirit and warming myself at the fire of God's love.
But having a more disciplined schedule, WHILE BENEFICIAL, will not lead me into godliness, will not sustain my soul, will not fill me up with that sweet water I so desperately need.
And here's the thing: all this is already mine! Jesus is ready and able, He stand waiting to help me. He is so much more inclined to help that I am inclined to believe that He wants to help!
O Lord, the time is short. Work in me, Spirit of God. Fill me with sweet water!